Sunday, July 13, 2014

Nicaragua here we come!

Thoughts as I prepare for our missions trip to Nicaragua...........

Lord, how am I going to make any difference there?  

For just one week?

I am so small.....

And the Lord tells me.....

Because I am going with you.

Because I am the one leading you.

It is I who is sending you.

It is I who will be working there, you are just the vessel I will use.

And I breath out.

And exhale in peace.

And I know that it's ok to leave my family.

And I know that He will do great things there....

Because HE is so GREAT and so BIG and so MAJESTIC and so POWERFUL.

And I am so small.

That I fit into the palm of His hand.

Where He is so faithful to always keep me.

God is great and I am not.

And Oh how I love that.

Adorable Little children of Nicaragua.......HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Friday, April 25, 2014

For where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty..................



 
 
For where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty         2 Corinthians 3:17
 
 
 
 
My beautiful girl with her amazing Daddy.....
 
They have bonded so closely in the last few months......
 
It has been so beautiful to watch the Lord do His work.......
 
It was not always easy or happy for Faithie and Daddy......
 
They have had their struggles.....
 
We all have......
 
But all glory to God.......
 
Jesus has the victory........
 
And my beautiful baby girl is free......
 
 
I sing praises to my God from whom all blessing freely flow!!!!!

Thursday, March 27, 2014

God reveals much through His smallest size creations



Spending time with little ones is like spending time with Jesus.  

 Their innocence and honesty and tenderness is a balm for the soul.

I took this photo this morning as we were heading out the door to get some fresh air after a bit of a rebellious morning.

One of my little ones did something they are not supposed to do. 

I scooped them up and gently explained that they are not allowed to hit.

And that they would have to sit down near Mama for a few minutes and think about what they did and how to say sorry.

That did not go over well.

The heart was not willing.

The arms became folded across the chest.

The eyes glared.

And beautiful lips turned into a frown.

Mama tried several times to set next to her little one and explain again that all they had to do was say sorry, and truly mean it and their time sitting down would be finished.

That was met with more rebellion.

Finally after a long while, I saw it.

The heart softened, the face softened, the arms unfolded and turned into a big hug for Mama and for their sibling.

And right then God spoke to me and asked me  "How many times have I tried to reason with you?" 

But instead of listening to me you think you have it all figured out on your own.

God sits and waits while I fold my arms across my chest and refuse to do as He says.

And then finally....

The wonderful feeling of glorious freedom that comes from simple obedience to my Father. 

Even when He asks me to do something I think is hard.

Or something I don't think can be done.

God is faithful.

He takes us under His wings and shelters us when we don't deserve it.

Thank you little one.

God taught me yet one more thing through your sweet little self today.

I love you to the moon and back.

xoxoxooxoxooxoxo

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

No words needed.



AND YES, SHE IS JUST AS BEAUTIFUL ON THE INSIDE AS SHE IS ON THE OUTSIDE!

                                                               GOD BLESS YOU!

Monday, January 27, 2014

Why I will not answer personal questions about our daughters adoption in public

Our daughter came home at 2 years of age so I am not sure of how much she understood about her past, her present and her future

I do know that she is wise beyond her years and very perceptive.   She can pick up on very small things sometimes that you wouldn't necessarily think a child her age would understand.   And I have seen her become very quiet and withdrawn when certain things are brought up in conversation.

She is now almost 4.

People are curious.  People are concerned.   I appreciate that.  I am a curious and concerned person too.

BUT

Faithie's story is hers.  And hers to know and understand first before anyone else.

As of now I will not answer  to any personal questions about our daughters adoption in front of her.  Whether it be from family, friends or strangers.   By personal I mean things like "How do you know if the birthday you celebrate with her is her real birthday?"   "How do you know if that is her real age?"  

 These may seem like harmless questions and if they are coming from the people I know, our family and friends that are in her life, I know that they mean no harm and are just curious or concerned.

BUT

There needs to be a little more sensitivity when the little one you are asking the question about it is in the same room.  That's all.     It is possible that my daughter will hear.   And I don't want her to find out details about her life from a conversation she heard in a crowded room full or people.

By Gods grace, to protect my little one,  I will find a way to answer the question depending on what it is, or totally ignore the question, depending on the situation. I am always more than happy to answer questions one on one.  Anyone who knows me knows how much I love to talk about adoption, some of you might even be sick of hearing about it!

BUT

There are certain conversations that should only take place in a quiet and safe space and only between a Mommy and Daddy and their little girl.


Much love to any and all who read this whether you are someone I know or someone I don't, love you just the same!
xoxooxoxoxoxoox





Tuesday, January 7, 2014

So just what are we doing exactly?

THIS IS ZOEY.   THIS IS THE FIRST PICTURE I EVER SAW OF HER AND IT SHOCKED ME TO MY CORE.  I WONDERED HOW SHE WAS STILL ALIVE AND JUST WHO WAS GOING TO TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH AND GO AND GET THIS SWEET GIRL?


AND THIS IS ZOEY MEETING HER NEW MAMA FOR THE FIRST TIME JUST A FEW WEEKS AGO.....WHAT A BEAUTIFUL TEAM!   LOOK HOW HAPPY SHE IS!  SHE KNOWS SHE IS LOVED AND ADORED, YOU CAN SEE IT ALL OVER HER FACE!

I LEARNED TONIGHT THAT ZOEY PASSED AWAY YESTERDAY, SHE JUST COULDNT HOLD ON ANY LONGER AND DIED.  (THE COUNTRY SHE WAS BEING ADOPTED FROM HAS TWO TRIPS, THIS MEETING WAS ONLY THE FIRST TRIP SO HER FAMILY HAD TO LEAVE HER TO CONTINUE THE PROCESS)

THIS NEWS HAS SMASHED MY HEART INTO PIECES AGAIN FOR ALL OF THE CHILDREN WHO WAIT.  

JUST WHAT ARE WE DOING?

WHAT ARE WE DOING WITH ALL THAT GOD HAS GIFTED US WITH?

HOW MANY EXCUSES DO WE HAVE?

PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT I KNOW THAT NOT EVERYONE CAN ADOPT.  BUT IF YOU CAN ADOPT, IF YOU WANT TO ADOPT, PLEASE TAKE THE LEAP!

IF YOU CANNOT ADOPT, PLEASE SUPPORT A FAMILY WHO IS ADOPTING. THAT IS CARING FOR ORPHANS TOO!

PLEASE PRAY FOR THIS ANGELS FAMILY AS THEY GRIEVE AN ENORMOUS LOSS.

XOXOOXOXOXOXO   AND IF YOU HAVE BABIES OF YOUR OWN, HUG THEM TIGHTER TONIGHT.

Monday, December 23, 2013

Tiny feet are such a treat



Tiny feet are such a treat!      So much cuteness!     Caught this picture of Noah and Faith's little tootsies the other day when I came in the room and they both had their little feet crossed.

                                                  I LOVE LITTLE FEET!!!!!!